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I am very stressed.
Remember I said back in June that I'd been referred for cognitive behavioural therapy? I've got the assessment appointment tomorrow. And I am stupidly stressed about it.

I'm not stressed so much for the reasons I gave before. I'm stressed because I forgot all about the appointment until an hour or so ago. Now, it's currently 3.20am on Monday 7th October, and my appointment is at 10.45am on Monday 7th October - so I remembered in plenty of time, what's the problem? Well, I can't stop thinking about what would have happened if I had forgotten completely - can't stop running futuristic time progressions in my head. The letter I got from the psychology department says, in big, bold letters: Should you choose not to attend an allocated appointment without letting us know, we will close your file. I can't stop obsessing with those words and calm down, accept the fact that I did remember in time and forget about it.

It is worth my pointing out that this inability to let things go is at least 33% of the reason why I need cognitive therapy :/

Current Mood: stressed stressed

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lilairen From: lilairen Date: 6th October 2002 20:09 (UTC) (Link)
I'm a complete flake about scheduling. One of the things I have, though, is a mail program that will send messages delayed. (This feature of Eudora being pointed out to me by brooksmoses.) So when I make doctor's appointments and such, I set up a message in my emailer set to send at some appropriate time before the appointment so I'll get the email in time to remember it. It means I can make the note essentially right after I make the appointment (or sometimes as the noting-down-of-appointment) and can not-worry about it for a while, because I know I'll check my email.

I hope sharing this idea is good for something. (I've got a clinic appointment Tuesday evening, and a message queued up to send at Tuesday noon. Nrrgh. I may queue up another one or change the time on the one so it'll remind me closer to when I'd have to have my head screwed on and be able to leave.)
From: jinian Date: 7th October 2002 10:48 (UTC) (Link)
That's more or less what I was thinking, a cron job to send delayed email. Or motd. :)
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hiddenpaw From: hiddenpaw Date: 7th October 2002 02:50 (UTC) (Link)
They say there are an infinite number of universes where an infinite number of possibilitiys are played out. I'm not sure if I really buy this but, if it's truethat means for every thing you could have done but didn't there is an HL out there some place that did and is worrying about it. Since they are handling all the worrying about what could have been you really don't have to...Unless you really want to that is, but I tend to find that depressing.

Good luck at the doc's
alexmc From: alexmc Date: 7th October 2002 02:59 (UTC) (Link)
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