November 26th, 2004

angry, Buttercup

asthma sucks, or blows, or stops you sucking and blowing

Have spent a few days being The Most Asthmatic Person In The World (TM) & having allergic reactions left, right and centre. The best bit was when I took two sips of my new Strawberry & Mango herbal tea and found my lips swelling up. Quite badly. Now, both strawberries and mangoes are fairly well known as allergenic fruits, but I've happily consumed both for years - including in other flavours of herbal tea by the same company. It's clearly not the herbs at fault, because they're the same as in several of my other flavours that don't make my lips swell up, so I'm pretty confused.

This has not been the only bad reaction in the past couple of weeks, and on Monday I spent half an hour sitting on my bedroom floor wondering if I was bad enough to need to go to A&E, but with a complete lack of desire to spend several hours sitting in A&E by myself, and without enough breath to actually ring someone to ask them to go with me. Plus, it was 10.30pm and most people I know are already heading to bed at that time :/ Suffice to say I did not die, just felt rotten for a long time, and finally got to sleep at gone 5am propped up on vast numbers of pillows. Joy.

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And this is all so weird for me, because for years either my physical or mental health problems have been the most disabling. Chronic pain or being nuts I kinda have coping skills for (in as much as anyone has coping skills for depression). Asthma has just been this thing in the background - just this thing that 1/3 of kids have, most of them pretty mildly. All of a sudden I can't do things I used to be able to, like go out and have fun, and it's bugging the hell out of me. I haven't been to the pub in almost a year, because I can't even tolerate the atmosphere in a non-smoking section; if I go to a swimming pool I'll be ill for the next day; we regularly have to insist on moving table in restaurants because the non-smoking table they've assigned us is too close to the smoking; and going to see bands or going out to clubs is virtually impossible. I'm so sensitive to solvents that the ink of a newspaper can start an allergic reaction and I have to be careful what writing paper and pens I buy. Walking down the road the other day I could actually identify ozone and sulphur dioxide in the air as the pollutants that were causing me distress - god, I wish I'd never done atmospheric chemistry.

In a way the worst thing of all is being a chemist who will never be able to do chemistry again. I'm too allergic to too many of the common chemicals used in even school labs - I discovered that last year. I actually doubt that even getting my asthma more controlled will help with this, because the best I'll be doing is masking the symptoms, not stopping the response. Desensitisation therapy would help - if I wasn't so allergic to so many unspecified things that they wouldn't dare do something like that to me.
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To fellow confused lactards

Tesco's own brand "Double choc chip cookies" contain wheat, gluten and soya. No dairy or egg listed in the ingredients or in the allergy box on the back :)

And they are goooooood - if you leave the packet open overnight they turn from crispy biscuits into squidgy American-style cookies.

And at two packets for 90p (400g of cookie!) you can't really complain.

Shame I don't have any other reason to go to Tesco, really.