May 4th, 2006

introspection

totems and emblems

Yesterday was a Very Bad Day, with a severe spoon overdraft. Almost fainted three times in half an hour, to say nothing of the nausea, dizziness and panic that lasted all day. Only got through that with the aid of kasson's bracelet and dwoucke's spoon - which are powerful totems. I only wish I could find esbat's ankh (yes, the one in this userpic), which has dropped down the back of the chest of drawers and disappeared :/ Less blatently sick today, but there is still a terrible knot of anxiety in my belly.

This was the link of the day on User Friendly yesterday: Evian animation: Waterboy. Absolutely adorable video, featuring a boy made of water dancing to "We Will Rock You". (Audio warning).

Made With Molecules. Chemistry jewellery! Link from okoshun. I am so ordering the creativity necklace, which will give me more totems for difficult days.

In searching for the link to explain it to someone, I found this analysis of what's wrong with the spoon theory by Ghetto River Nymph. It is, sadly, so true, and I've been giggling my head off at it. I like the idea of the limited resources that a person with (a) chronic health problem/s has compared to a "normal" person of the same age, but I hate the over-emotive language that the spoon girl uses. So, yeah.

OK, student just turned up, I have to go. Back later.
me

Blogging Against Disablism

firecat pointed me at Blogging Against Disablism day. How come I didn't hear of this before it happened? Gah. Here are some comments from the posts that firecat thought were particularly interesting or informative. I'm going to have to read my way through the whole lot myself, now. Well, that'll keep me amused the next time I'm at home, depressed & ill :)

One of the things about this past weekend is I realised how many thoroughly decent people I have in my life. At various points in the weekend, I was there with both of my gorgeous partners, Richard & Alexa; my lovely tocotox, ludy; my best friends, Tim & Peter; and of course, the amazingly talented Freezepop - as well as taimatsu, barty and cryx. I spent the whole weekend surrounded by beautiful, intelligent people who care about me.

So I have this wonderful "little" collection of health problems. I have to deal with pain and exhaustion and having to conserve my energy; remembering to take drugs on time, and being horribly sick if I forget; and not being able to go out and do things that other, "normal" people my age can. Of course it gets me down sometimes. I have attacks of really bad depression and woe, but the fact is I have: two partners and a bunch of good friends who love me and are there for me.

If I am unlucky for having the health crap, I'm so lucky and blessed with the love I have. My life may suck, but it also rocks.