helen-louise

I am sick of days where I sit in front of the shiny computer at college with barely enough concentration span to block out the noise, and a total lack of coherent thought. Days where I have to actually talk to myself in my head in words because otherwise I'd be too depersonalised to remember that I have a brain.

Especially as it costs me money to come into college, and if I'm here and unable to work that's £7.50 wasted.

Should be able to get hold of someone in the doctor's tomorrow. Hoping that application of the correct dose of carbamazepine will fix this.

Also, I just wrote the date down in my research logbook-thing as 17/10/05, instead of 17/05/10. Brainfart, or some sort of wishful thinking that it was 5 years ago?