December 10th, 2011


Why can't I do my work?

I wish I knew what was wrong with me. I have a deadline for my literature report of Thursday 15th December. But I haven't managed to get any work done on it in weeks. No concentration span at all.

I just don't seem to be acting like a person with a big deadline next week, and the only conclusion I can come to is that I'm so exhausted from SAD that my adrenaline-producing circuits aren't functioning. Not only do I not feel like working, I don't feel panicked about having left the work so late. I'm not feeling very much at all.

Rationally, I want to get this work done and progress with my course - but in practice, it's really hard to with no motivation. Usually, panic would've kicked in about a month ago. I don't know where it is, and it's peculiar.