January 9th, 2014

introspection

Not coping

I am very, very stressed.

My husband is being sent to Canada next week and we still don't know when. It's "only" 3 or 4 days, but he is my full-time carer, and it's hard for me to manage without him.

And after I sent a slightly passive-aggressive letter to the Pain Management Clinic at Kingston Hospital, they phoned me at 8.30 this morning to say they'd completely run out of capacity, but I could go to Queen Mary's in Roehampton to get my back fixed. Kingston Hospital is 10 minutes walk from my house, whereas Queen Mary's is 25 minutes on a bus. The appointment is for 1.30pm on Saturday 18th January.

I am now having a minor panic attack because I have a really bad hospital phobia, so it is extremely non-trivial for me to go somewhere that I don't know. Also, what I'm having done to my back counts as "surgery", which is freaking me out even more.

Also, I have had period pain FROM HELL for 3 days, which is also reducing my ability to cope. I am also about 2 months behind with my academic work, since I have been too ill to think since 3rd December. I thought I'd be well enough to get going on Tuesday, then the period pain started, meaning I've had to dope myself up to the eyeballs (and STILL HURT).

Fortunately, I am seeing my Disability Mentor (a.k.a. mental health professional) tomorrow. Nonetheless, I could do with expressions of sympathy, and offers of people to help me out with finding food next week.
what's this?, latte

Random links with no particular theme

Have some links:

Slate.com: The Snarky, Clever Comments Hidden in the "Acknowledgments" of Academic Papers. A few days later, this article appeared in The Times, hardly edited at all. Hrm.

Twitter picture: Just wrapped the other half's Xmas present. I should have kept it in the box. May be NSFW?

Fungal Christmas tree. Yeah, I should have posted this link about a month ago.

Short story: The Racist Tree by Alexander Blechman.


Webcomics:
BBC News: Amiir and Family: Somalis in Norway. Rather moving webcomic in the style of Persepolis and Maus.

The Dwarf Bride by Sammy Montoya. Awesome 8 page comic with queer theme.


Random Tumblr stuff:
Real bear with a teddy bear.

Fifty Shades of Grey as read aloud by a Kindle.

Books I Like by Katie Viggers. Children's picture books reviewed.