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Really not doing very wonderfully at all. To give you some idea, today involved my alarm going off at 3pm followed by me falling back to sleep multiple times until it was about 5.30pm. Then I sat in bed reading and having bursts of crying until 8ish. Feeling very tired, very sad and very "heavy" - my limbs feel like I'm in some sort of extra-strong gravity field and moving feels like far too much effort.

Not altogether certain whether it's depression or chronic fatigue or both. For the past few weeks, I seem to have been having an okay day followed by an absolutely shitty day, over and over. Probably need to go back to the doctor. And it's fucking frustrating because I spent the summer reducing the dose of my antidepressant and now what? Dire depression. Richard says "You don't remember how bad you were years ago" and he's right, but nor do I want to go back there.

My concentration span is rotten too. I can't concentrate on anything, then I hyperfocus on something. Like ranting about the stupid Daily Mail article. It's all or nothing, and it's never on the right things. Also I feel cold all the time and my hair is falling out worse than usual.

I'd quite like to crawl into a hole and hibernate for a few months until it's spring again.

Not keeping up with livejournal terribly well. If there's something you want to make sure I know, then post the link here.

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emperor From: emperor Date: 21st October 2009 07:14 (UTC) (Link)
*hug* I hope you're feeling better soon.
nessbutterfly From: nessbutterfly Date: 21st October 2009 09:40 (UTC) (Link)
Also dealing with CFS/depression/arthritis issues and basically being overwhelmed by how crapped out my body is.

Hope you get well soon - know all too well what it's like. :(
maniackatie From: maniackatie Date: 21st October 2009 10:31 (UTC) (Link)

Because this time I feel like giving you one. Hang in there, H-L. I'm thinking of you :(

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otterylexa From: otterylexa Date: 21st October 2009 12:42 (UTC) (Link)
barakta From: barakta Date: 21st October 2009 13:40 (UTC) (Link)
Meh, sorry to hear things are so rotten. Nothing much going on in barakta-land, I have the ill again, off work, blahblahblah and I'm still scheming lots of Brum BiFestly things in the periods where my brain works enough to use a PC.
alexmc From: alexmc Date: 22nd October 2009 07:02 (UTC) (Link)
thinking of you.
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