helen-louise (baratron) wrote,

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Well, that was a useful exercise.

OK, I do need to force myself to keep a proper log of things. When I sat down and wrote about the last couple of days, a clear mood pattern emerged - anxiety, irritability, oversensitivity, indecisiveness... I mean, I have a badge that says "I'm not indecisive - am I?", but most people who've spent much time around me will know I'm usually the one who ends the 15 minute dinner debate by saying "Sod this, let's just go and FIND SOMEWHERE!". Indecisiveness is a really clear indicator of depression for me. I've also discovered by writing it down that I've had nightmares on three of the past five nights. So that was a useful exercise, and I feel somewhat better.

I'm also glad that I deleted the "Is everyone ignoring me?" paragraph from my last entry before I posted it. I don't think any of you are ignoring me, you just don't know there's a problem because I haven't been telling people about it, because I haven't been around to tell people. It doesn't help that I'm still extremely lacking in people's phone numbers as a result of having my phone nicked in Brighton. If you didn't mind me having your phone number before, please will you send it to me again? Thanks.

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