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Blargh. Today I was VERY BRAVE and went to get a cervical smear test done. For various reasons, including having A Thing about having the same doctor see me with and without clothes, and liking to see an actual gynaecologist, I go to a Well Woman/Family Planning clinic somewhere other than my usual GP surgery. I should have gone in July or August, but the clinic is only open on Monday and Tuesday nights - which has made it rather hard to get there "in the middle of the month".

Anyway, while I was there I got my girly bits prodded to find out whether the pain which I've been attributing to "my evil left ovary" is indeed gynaecological. And apparently it might be fibroids or a cyst of some sort and I need to get referred for a scan. OH JOY.

This is just not a thing I need right now/at all, given that I'm having a generally stressful few months and also have medical phobia. I've managed to overcome my fear of Kingston Hospital to the point where I can go there for blood tests or urgent treatment in A&E, but there are certain things that I'm still absolutely terrified of. Do Not Want.

Then again, given that endometrial cancer runs in my family, I'd have to be stupid to let my phobia stop me from getting a diagnosis - in case it is something serious.

Argh! Why this? Why now? Why can't my evil left ovary just stop being evil?

I know that if it's a benign ovarian cyst it has a reasonable chance of getting reabsorbed of its own accord, so it is pointless worrying too much in advance of more information - but if I could rationalise things like that, I wouldn't have a medical phobia!

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otterylexa From: otterylexa Date: 21st November 2011 22:24 (UTC) (Link)
epi_lj From: epi_lj Date: 22nd November 2011 00:49 (UTC) (Link)
I hate that feeling of being under stress load already and then having something *else* pile on, especially something like this. I really hope everything goes as smoothly and non-evilly as possible. *hugs*
baratron From: baratron Date: 22nd November 2011 15:44 (UTC) (Link)
That's precisely it - I'm thinking "Didn't the Universe KNOW I'm already short of spoons?".
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baratron From: baratron Date: 22nd November 2011 19:34 (UTC) (Link)
I was actually going to ask you if that would be okay! Let's see what the doctor says first, though. I don't know what the average waiting times for this sort of scan are.
treacle_well From: treacle_well Date: 22nd November 2011 18:36 (UTC) (Link)
Ugh. Very stressful indeed.
memevector From: memevector Date: 24th November 2011 08:43 (UTC) (Link)
Sympathies for the stress and hope the actual medical whatever-it-is proves not to be a bother!
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