helen-louise (baratron) wrote,

  • Mood:

tired. frustrated. argh!

Someone posted on chronic_health "I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired". And that's pretty much how I feel today.

For the past, oooh, month? I've been tired all the time. It gets draining after a while. I go to bed tired and wake up exhausted. I have so many nightmares (maybe 8 or 9 that I remember each night, plus some more that I won't remember later) that I wake up constantly and so I'm exhausted in the morning. When this latest bout of depression first started I could go to sleep in the middle of the day and sleep off the depression, waking up feeling slightly better, whereas now I can't get to sleep at night, and when I do it's nightmares, nightmares, nightmares *sigh*. I'm shattered, really. And it's awful to be lying in bed knowing that when I do fall asleep I'm going to have bad dreams - that in itself would be enough to give someone insomnia.

And now irc friends of mine in a timezone five hours behind have started logging off to go to bed, and I'm still here, still awake but oh so tired, and naggingly depressed, wanting a hug and with nowhere to get one apart from one of my octys. I'm sick of this.

  • Curry and Californian

    Last night I went out for curry and ice cream in a clean t-shirt. And then proceeded not to spill any of it over myself. Who am I, and what have I…

  • State of the h-l report

    Happy 2014 to those to celebrate such things. I personally don't, nor do I make New Year's Resolutions. It's the wrong time of year where I live.…

  • People who need to be stabbed with sporks.

    You know what makes me really fuckin' angry? People who boast that they don't take any medications that are made in a lab. As I said to one of these…

  • Post a new comment


    Anonymous comments are disabled in this journal

    default userpic

    Your reply will be screened

    Your IP address will be recorded 

  • 1 comment