helen-louise (baratron) wrote,

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tired. frustrated. argh!

Someone posted on chronic_health "I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired". And that's pretty much how I feel today.

For the past, oooh, month? I've been tired all the time. It gets draining after a while. I go to bed tired and wake up exhausted. I have so many nightmares (maybe 8 or 9 that I remember each night, plus some more that I won't remember later) that I wake up constantly and so I'm exhausted in the morning. When this latest bout of depression first started I could go to sleep in the middle of the day and sleep off the depression, waking up feeling slightly better, whereas now I can't get to sleep at night, and when I do it's nightmares, nightmares, nightmares *sigh*. I'm shattered, really. And it's awful to be lying in bed knowing that when I do fall asleep I'm going to have bad dreams - that in itself would be enough to give someone insomnia.

And now irc friends of mine in a timezone five hours behind have started logging off to go to bed, and I'm still here, still awake but oh so tired, and naggingly depressed, wanting a hug and with nowhere to get one apart from one of my octys. I'm sick of this.

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